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Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Written at: 7:09 PM

10 days later….

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I feel dizzy… where am I? It’s so white… am I in heaven?


She is unconscious once again.

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I still don’t believe I shot her. Please wake up, I can never forgive myself if you don’t wake up.

“Open the beep door. I need to see her. I need to tell her something! I need to see her. Let me go see her!”

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Why did I let her push me out of the way?


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Earlier, when she was carried to the hospital:


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"If she can’t wake in 10 days, on that night, will be her last night. Please, don’t keep your hopes up."

The doctor could always be wrong...

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Back to the 10th day


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The mother was still crying, father is not paying attention to anything.

Raymond hasn’t been outside in the last 10 days.

The boy is in jail and still wants to see her….

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RING

The mother, father, and Raymond all received a phone call from the hospital.

“Your daughter/girlfriend is in the state of danger right now. To survive or not, it depends now. The doctor still says to not keep your hopes high…”

Raymond thought, “How long haven’t I shaved?”....

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Beep Beep Beep

The monitor… her heartbeat… wake up Boa!

Raymond was getting really worried and so were her parents.

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Please, let her be okay. Let me stay in jail forever if only she can wake up…. Please, let her be okay… I rather shoot myself then her….

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She slowly regains consciousness

Raymond is okay, Mom and Dad are crying, but he… where is he? Where am I? My head is hurting… Oh, now I remember…

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Goes back to the day she got shot

I need to push Raymond away. I will take the shot, I can’t let Raymond get hurt.. NO!


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Back to present day


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I was shot. I was shot by Danson. Yeah, that was it. Am I in the hospital? I want to go to sleep. I’m too tired. I’ll wake up tomorrow and tell them I’m ok… tomorrow~


She didn’t know that if she didn’t wake up now, she can be claimed dead…

Why is her heartbeat slowing down? Get faster!

“Wake up! Boa! I know, I will hold her hand, squeeze it until she wakes up.”

Why is Raymond holding me so tight? I want to sleep…


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"Her eyes are flickering. Nurse, get her to the emergency room! Hurry!"

Please be okay… I will stay by your side…always~


The bed is rolling, closer and closer to the emergency room… The doors open and the bed is inside. Raymond is stuck outside with Boa’s parents…. The emergency room light is on, brighter than ever….

Danson, being in jail, heard the guards outside talking.

“Hey, did you know? That girl that he shot. She was taken to the emergency room. A phone call came just now. You think she can survive that shot?...”

She was taken to the emergency room… Let her overcome it! I can stay in jail forever, just let her be okay…

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Hours and hours passed…

These 4 people are worrying still, and praying for her to overcome this stage. Slowly, they watched the clock as 5 hours passed…. more slowly… the emergency room light went off….

Raymond and Boa’s parents rushed to the door, the doors slowly opening and…

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Beep….. beep…... beep…..

"Her heart is going just fine but her health is weak so I would like to inform all of you not to surprise her or tell her anything that would raise her blood pressure. This year, the hospital doesn’t have enough blood to supply her so she will have to wait a bit longer to have new blood injected into her body.

She’s okay… Let me go home and take a shower… Let me be clean when I see her…

Everyone that was worried about her, friends and family, were finally relaxed. They were glad that she has returned somewhat normal~

The news had even traveled all the way to the jail house that Danson was in.

He was glad… he was relaxed and released of guilt. He had decided to go.. go happily...

"You are now allowed to go in. Please put on these coats and masks first."

"Hi, sweetie. Are you hungry or anything?"

"How are you, Boa?" Raymond says as he takes hold of her hand.

"Are you tired? Answer me please?"

Boa tried to tell them something but all that came out was… “cuh eh i er?”....

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"Someone come over here! He looks like he’s fainted!”

People started rushing into Danson's jailroom. They found a fruit knife next to his right hand. How did it get there?

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She fell unconscious again.

”Boa, are you okay? Doctor! She fainted again!”

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The events happened very slowly and things started to go wrong…

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1 year later

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Danson Tang's grave
R.I.P.
Have lived happy years of his life
Died in prison

Boa puts flowers down

”Danson, thank you for all your love and now I know how dangerous love can be to me… I'm marrying Raymond next year. I invited you. You have changed and I still remember your last words."

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1/2 year before

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”Boa, do you think that I can get better? I’m still sick in bed.”

“Of course. I’m in a wheelchair already so you’ll get better.”

”Boa, can you promise me something, if I don’t live?”

Boa's eyes started to water.

“Sure, whatever you want.”

“Can you just place flowers of your liking on my grave on my birthday? I love you. You were the only one that understood me and accepted me.”

“Can you?"

”Danson.. yes."

“Can you give me a kiss, too? It’s almost midnight…”

His voice gets weaker.

“Please, Boa. Give me my final kiss…”

He slowly slips from consciousness...

Boa gently kisses his lips as he slowly leaves the human world…

Boa's tears slowly starts flowing in the glow of the moon, glistening.



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Written at: 6:39 PM

He slowly thought about what she just said… Does that mean she doesn’t love me? She’s not… happy that I came here to be her boyfriend?

He slowly reaches for the gun again….

“How can you not love me? I love you with all my heart! I talk with you and share my secrets with you! Why aren’t you taking my request in and treat me like one? I want to become your boyfriend.”

He has his gun out now, he knew that this was going to happen…

“What are you doing? Where did you get that? Please, don’t hurt anyone,”

How did he get a gun? Was that why Mom and Dad was so scared? How come I didn’t notice? She.. started to regret all this.

“I loved you. I spent time with you. I knew that I can believe you. Why did you go out with some other guy instead of me?”

This is getting me pissed… why?

“Hey, I spent two years with Boa and how long have you been with her? I spent 2 years talking with her, going out with her and you?”

Danson got confused. He started to get wary.

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Is that true? She spent two years with that kid… I don’t care. I love her and she’s the only one for me!

“I wasted 1/2 year talking with her, not paying attention to any other girl. Do you think I will give up this easily?”

Boa got angry at the statement. She turned her head to face Danson in the eyes.

“You think that you wasted 1/2 a year with me? You think that 1/2 year of talking to me is a big waste? Well, I’m sorry for making 1/2 of your single year that big of a waste. I didn’t know that helping you during that time was a big waste of time. What does that make me? A big waste of space?”

I don’t care if he got a gun or not, he thinks rudely of me, I want payback.

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I didn’t mean that. No, don’t get me wrong…

“I don’t think you’re a big waste of space, no, I don’t.”

“Then do you mean that because you couldn’t get me, you have to do anything to get me. You will rob, steal, run away, maybe even kill me just to have me? That’s not true love, Danson. I told you before, to truly love someone, you have to wish them happiness.”

“I am your happiness.”

Or am I?

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Was I her happiness? Didn’t someone say that to me before? Who was it? It was her. Why? Why can’t I be your happiness? I love you, why can’t I be your happiness?

He slowly puts down the gun as though he understood something and immediately, he put it back up again.

“No, that’s wrong. If I gave you happiness then, who’s going to give me happiness? That’s not true, stop giving me your lectures. I know, I’ll kill that kid first and then, you will be left with no one but ME!”

“Why can’t you understand? Even without Raymond, I won’t love you. We were destined to be friends. Why make our relationship be nothing when we could be friends?” Raymond is the person I love, always. Why can’t he understand that?

During this time, Raymond was trying to reach his phone without making Danson notice.

“That’s not true. Without him in the world, you would like me.”

Raymond got to his phone and started pressing 911…

“No, you have to understand. I love Raymond with all my heart and you can’t make me love you.”

BAM !

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Everything was going on so slow… the girl hurried and pushed Raymond away. Raymond dropped his cellphone after yelling the address and what was going on. Danson dropped his gun after he pressed it. The parents were holding Danson down. He was showing no sign of struggling…


“Are you okay? Boa! Wake up, I shouldn’t have let you pushed me… Are you alright?” Raymond is slowly crying while he’s talking.

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This actually doesn’t hurt. The only difference was that I see red water, blood. I feel dizzy… “Raymond, I want to go to sleep. Can I? I promise that I will wake up early tomorrow… please?”

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I shot her… I was suppose to shoot that kid, what was his name? Raymond, yeah, that was it. I wanted to shoot him. Why did she pushed him out of the way? I shot her… no, I didn’t. I couldn’t have shot her.

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The mother let go of Danson and went to her daughter.

Ambulance sounds were echoing throughout the block… Police lights were flashing… Tears were on the witnesses’ faces…

Did I die?....



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Written at: 6:00 PM

Danson gave up finding the “crowbar” and went to the front door. He slowly pushes the doorbell…

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Boa is still in the car, talking with her boyfriend. Well, talk all you want because you are never going to believe what happens next…

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“Hello, I am looking for Boa,” and holds up his paper with her address and name…

“Is she here?”....

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Boa receives a call from her mother saying something about a boy wanting to see her..

“But I’m with Raymond now… tell him to stay until I get home, if he can.”

With that, she continued with her ride to the movies….

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“She’s asking you to stay here until she gets back, are you available?”

So, Danson stayed for the night….

The girl was walking out of the movie theater when she looked at her phone and saw one missed call. It was from home, and she made the phone call back.

“Hey, mom? What is it?”

You won’t believe what she heard….


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“Honey, this boy, I think he’s… tired of waiting.. When are you going to be home?”

“Mom, I just got out of the theater, I’ll tell Raymond to drive me home now.”

She hangs up.

“Raymond, drive me home now.”

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“Where is she? WHERE IS SHE ?!”

Danson had a gun, pointing it at the father.

“She’s coming home now. Please, let him go!”

He slowly puts the gun down and starts straightening himself up. He walks to the living room and sits down, as if nothing happened…

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Boa got to the house and saw the house lights on. There was someone in the living room… she doesn’t recognize him. She got out of the car with Raymond and walked up to the front door. She slowly puts the key in and wonders,

“What was the tone Mom had with me before?”...

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The three people inside heard the doorknob turn. The boy started to get up and walk towards the door, to open the door for his love. He was halfway to the door when the door opened….

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Who is he? Why is he holding her? That should be me!

“I’m your buddy, girl. Remember me? I said that I love you but you never gave me a chance, did you?”

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Nothing ticked in Boa's head. She looked at Danson in a confused state. Danson stared right back.

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She doesn't seem to remember him... and Danson wasn't aware of that.

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"Boa.. remember Danson? The poor little boy that was cut TWICE?!"

Ah, she seems to remember something…

”You remember me, right girl? I love you and I came all the way here to be your boyfriend. Aren’t you happy?”

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“Who is this person? Uncle, Auntie, where are you?” Raymond, she thought, stop talking. “Raymond, this is one of my…friends. This is Raymond, my boyfriend.”

No way, he can’t be her boyfriend. She never told me that she had a boyfriend.

“No darling, you got it messed up. I am your boyfriend. This is not your boyfriend.”

Danson Tang. Age 22. Why. is. he. here.?

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“Who are you, kid?" said Danson, directing it at Raymond.

"Why are you here?”

I can’t believe that she’s still holding him….

“I’m her boyfriend. That is supposed to be my question. What right do you have coming in here and saying that you’re her boyfriend. She said that you are a friend and you’re saying you’re her boyfriend.” Maybe I should warn Raymond. I think Danson is mental...

“Oh, if you’re her boyfriend, then who am I? I came here from across the country to meet her and start a relationship with her! We talked a lot and I don’t believe that you even know that!”

Let’s see how he’s going to twist that…

“That’s it! Danson, please leave now. I told you that I don’t like you! I never liked you and things never changed. We're from two different worlds!”

Crying now, she pulls Raymond and herself away from the door, opened wide for Danson to leave… if only he did.



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Monday, February 4, 2008
Written at: 4:55 PM

There was once a silly little boy. He was a person who loves every girl who cares about him, loved that person in a girlfriend-boyfriend way. He would never give up for love. His name was Danson.

He had 2 kind-of girlfriends and he has been heart broken by both of them. They both dumped him. Finally, he has came to the one he thought as a soul mate.

This girl, named Boa, was a friend of both of his ex-girlfriends and didn’t plan on going out with him. Even so, this boy still talked to her as if she was. One day, she had it.

“Stop bothering me please, I really don’t like you. I am going to block you and ignore all your messages.”

He didn’t give up, though. He searched for her sites, sites that she normally goes on and finally, he found her address…

“I have her address, I hope she can accept me this time…”

That’s just his thought but the girl was not going to give in.


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“I’m going out. Raymond is waiting for me outside.”

Yes, she has a boyfriend and that is why she does not like Danson.


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“I finally got here. Let’s see… where’s the back door?”


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Boa is going out the door and walking down the stairs.

“Hey, Raymond!!! Where are we going today?”


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He found the back door. It’s locked….

“Is there a crowbar around here?”


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She got in the car and left the house, smiling and laughing happily. She doesn’t know that this won’t last long….



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Sunday, February 3, 2008
Written at: 7:53 PM

The Most Foolish Traveler In The World: Natsuki Takaya
Written in the character, Momiji Sohma's Words

A foolish traveler was on a journey. He was stupid because he was easily tricked. The townspeople took advantage of him. On that journey, he was tricked into giving away all his money, clothes, and shoes. But the traveler was foolish, so when the townspeople lied to him saying, "This will really help"...tears would stream down his face...and he would say, "Please be happy." When he gave away his last belonging... he was naked and ashamed to be seen. So he decided to travel in the forest. Then he met the monsters who lived in the forest. They wanted to eat him, so they tricked him with clever words. Of course the traveler was fooled and when the monsters asked, he gave up his arms and his legs. Eventually the traveler was nothing but a head. He even gave his eyes to the last monster he met. As the monster munched on his eyes... he said, "Thank you. I'll give you this in return." And left him. But that was a lie, too. His gift was a single piece of paper that had "FOOL" written on it. But the traveler cried and cried, saying "Thank you. Thank you. This is the first time anyone's given me anything. I'm so happy. Thank you. Thank you." And tears kept flowing from his eye sockets. And while he was crying...he died.

Momiji's Additional words:
Everyone laughed. While they laughed...I closed my eyes... and thought about the traveler. I thought about the traveler who was tricked into being nothing but a crying head saying, "Thank you." And...I thought...how...lucky...he was. Loss...suffering...It's pointless to think about them. The traveler didn't think about them. That... might be stupid to some people...but it's not stupid to me. I won't trick anyone, even if other people think that person deserves it. I just want to make them happy.
Editor's Note:
"The Most Foolish Traveler In The World" is an original work by Takaya. No matter how hard you look, you won't find it in a bookstore.

Natsuki Takaya's words:
Everyone tells me that story is very much my style. Rather than try to elicit a cheap cry, I really wanted to make my readers face their own emotions.

My words:
I really enjoyed this story and I hope you people do too~ You can also read the story here too: http://mangavolume.com/index.php?serie=fruits-basket&chapter=fruits-basket-17&page_nr=18

On this site, the story was called The World's Stupidest Tourist.



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FAITH

My music is my life
For you, for you, smile
Because our hearts will link together
My life is wonderful
Forever, forever

` Hero & Micky, COLORS ~ MELODY AND HARMONY

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I believe in my five east-rising Gods.
Always keep the faith.

DBSK


KIM JAEJOONG
Stage Name: Hero


JUNG YUNHO
Stage Name: U-Know


PARK YOOCHUN
Stage Name: Micky


KIM JUNSU
Stage Name: Xiah


SHIM CHANGMIN
Stage Name: Max

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