Written at: 6:39 PM
He slowly thought about what she just said… Does that mean she doesn’t love me? She’s not… happy that I came here to be her boyfriend?
He slowly reaches for the gun again….
“How can you not love me? I love you with all my heart! I talk with you and share my secrets with you! Why aren’t you taking my request in and treat me like one? I want to become your boyfriend.”
He has his gun out now, he knew that this was going to happen…
“What are you doing? Where did you get that? Please, don’t hurt anyone,”
How did he get a gun? Was that why Mom and Dad was so scared? How come I didn’t notice? She.. started to regret all this.
“I loved you. I spent time with you. I knew that I can believe you. Why did you go out with some other guy instead of me?”
This is getting me pissed… why?
“Hey, I spent two years with Boa and how long have you been with her? I spent 2 years talking with her, going out with her and you?”
Danson got confused. He started to get wary.
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Is that true? She spent two years with that kid… I don’t care. I love her and she’s the only one for me!
“I wasted 1/2 year talking with her, not paying attention to any other girl. Do you think I will give up this easily?”
Boa got angry at the statement. She turned her head to face Danson in the eyes.
“You think that you wasted 1/2 a year with me? You think that 1/2 year of talking to me is a big waste? Well, I’m sorry for making 1/2 of your single year that big of a waste. I didn’t know that helping you during that time was a big waste of time. What does that make me? A big waste of space?”
I don’t care if he got a gun or not, he thinks rudely of me, I want payback.
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I didn’t mean that. No, don’t get me wrong…
“I don’t think you’re a big waste of space, no, I don’t.”
“Then do you mean that because you couldn’t get me, you have to do anything to get me. You will rob, steal, run away, maybe even kill me just to have me? That’s not true love, Danson. I told you before, to truly love someone, you have to wish them happiness.”
“I am your happiness.”
Or am I?
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Was I her happiness? Didn’t someone say that to me before? Who was it? It was her. Why? Why can’t I be your happiness? I love you, why can’t I be your happiness?
He slowly puts down the gun as though he understood something and immediately, he put it back up again.
“No, that’s wrong. If I gave you happiness then, who’s going to give me happiness? That’s not true, stop giving me your lectures. I know, I’ll kill that kid first and then, you will be left with no one but ME!”
“Why can’t you understand? Even without Raymond, I won’t love you. We were destined to be friends. Why make our relationship be nothing when we could be friends?” Raymond is the person I love, always. Why can’t he understand that?
During this time, Raymond was trying to reach his phone without making Danson notice.
“That’s not true. Without him in the world, you would like me.”
Raymond got to his phone and started pressing 911…
“No, you have to understand. I love Raymond with all my heart and you can’t make me love you.”
BAM !
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Everything was going on so slow… the girl hurried and pushed Raymond away. Raymond dropped his cellphone after yelling the address and what was going on. Danson dropped his gun after he pressed it. The parents were holding Danson down. He was showing no sign of struggling…
“Are you okay? Boa! Wake up, I shouldn’t have let you pushed me… Are you alright?” Raymond is slowly crying while he’s talking.
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This actually doesn’t hurt. The only difference was that I see red water, blood. I feel dizzy… “Raymond, I want to go to sleep. Can I? I promise that I will wake up early tomorrow… please?”
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I shot her… I was suppose to shoot that kid, what was his name? Raymond, yeah, that was it. I wanted to shoot him. Why did she pushed him out of the way? I shot her… no, I didn’t. I couldn’t have shot her.
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The mother let go of Danson and went to her daughter.
Ambulance sounds were echoing throughout the block… Police lights were flashing… Tears were on the witnesses’ faces…
Did I die?....
